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Issue 83

Another year is coming to a close.  I know I’m not the only one feeling like time is going faster than ever.

I hope you all had a Happy Thanksgiving during which you were able to review your life and find many things to be truly grateful for.  To me, the key to happiness is when we are able to make each day into a thanks giving day.

I’m writing this before Thanksgiving and already there are Christmas decorations out there so I am starting to smell 2015 in the air.

“Time flies” is an expression I’ve heard my whole life.  As a child, I thought adults were silly to say such things, since time felt the same to me.  But as I grow older, years seem to literally fly by too fast for me to grasp onto anything.

So here I am again, facing the end of a year, feeling that 2015 is just around the corner and not knowing what happened to 2014 (or 2013 or 2012 or any other year for that matter!).

And I’m wondering about my life.  What am I really doing here?  What have I accomplished in 2014?  What do I wish to accomplish in 2015?

I was looking at a documentary yesterday about the life of the world famous physicist, Stephen Hawking.  In it, he says that since his diagnosis of ALS over 50 years ago, when the doctors gave him only one year or two to live, he has been determined to make every day count.  And, if we judge from the amazing discoveries he has made in his field, one would have to conclude he is doing just that, making each day count.

While watching the documentary, I was left feeling dissatisfied with myself, with my work.  I also remembered a quote from John Kennedy, “If not us, who?  If not now, when?”

That is a seriously provoking question!

If I don’t do something meaningful with my days, how can I expect anyone else to do anything with theirs?

If I don’t do something significant with my life now, when will I?

So I can change the quote to a more personal, “If not me, who? If not now, when?”

It all comes down to what I believe I’m doing here.  Or more precisely, what do I choose to do with the rest of my life?  And what am I waiting for to just do it?

I live a good life.  An easy life.  I don’t believe the ease of it needs to change.  I don’t believe I have to make things hard on myself before I can say I am fulfilling my life’s purpose.

As a beloved soul sister keeps saying, “Everything with grace and ease”.  I don’t see any reason to choose hardship over grace and ease for any of it.  So, when I talk to God, the Spirit World, the Universe, or anything you may prefer to call that Force that I feel is in everyone and everything, my first stipulation is to live gracefully, to allow change to happen with ease.

But I choose for change to happen and to happen now.  I don’t wish to even wait for the fateful New Year’s Resolutions I used to make on the first of every year when I was younger (and that I forgot about before February came around!).  Instead, I choose to consider each day as the beginning.

No, that’s not even correct.  Saying I am beginning something implies that I will accomplish it in the future some time.

My choice now is to be as spiritually grounded as I can be every day of my life.  That means I must do the things that help me be that and stop doing what keeps me away from being my best.

Sounds easy enough, even for me!  Do what works, stop doing what doesn’t.  So why have I not done that?  Why have I been procrastinating?  What is it that kept me from being my best all the time?  It’s ridiculous, really, because I feel better about myself, my life and everything around me when I live from my core being, when I allow myself to be guided by my inner voice, that contact with Spirit that I love so much.

Why do I do that?   My best guess is that my Ego is very fearful of disappearing if I should one day stop doing all the stuff that fear chooses for me.

Fear of lack, making me believe there is not enough stuff for everyone in the world, so that I need to be careful to get my share and not be too generous with it.

Fear of being not good enough, of being unworthy, judging myself and others, with questions such as, “Who do you think you are?”


 

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It is only when I connect with my Inner Guide that I realize those fears, and more, come from a belief that I am separate from God and, hence, from everyone else.

If I truly lived as the spiritual being I believe I am, I would not fear lack, since the Universe and I are the same and the Universe is an abundant place.  As a spiritual being, I would also know I and everyone else are absolutely worthy,  We are all magnificent beings who only wish to experience our best selves while we are in this life.

It is only when I connect with my best Self, my Higher Self, that Ego takes a back seat.  I become the one in charge, I decide how to use the things of the world in a way that serves me best and, by extension, serves the world best.

The Holidays are upon us.  Holy Days if we choose to make them so.

I so choose.  I choose to make each day into a Holy Day and I do that when I go within and listen to my inner voice. I hope many of you do the same.

There is no reason to stop celebrating the Holidays in whichever way your own culture and tradition does.  I love the idea of celebrating something.

I love the idea that so very many people celebrate on the same days.  I imagine a bubble full of light and joy surrounding all of them.  It’s a lovely image that I enjoy a great deal.

That bubble does not have to be limited to only a few days every year.  Every time we feel joy, the bubble gets bigger.  Even when we feel joy that someone else is happy, the bubble grows.

I love this bubble.  It’s not the kind of bubble that isolates me from the world.  It’s the kind that surrounds us all.  So my wish for this coming season is the same as what I wish for all the world all the time.  Let us grow this bubble of light and make it shine more and more brightly all over the world.

Let us do that now.  Let US do that.  Let’s not wait for our leaders, whether in government, religion or anywhere else to do it for us.  As Gandhi said, “Let us be the change we want to see in the world”.

For me, that means doing my part here and now to make the bubble grow.  To send light and joy to the people in my life, whether they are there for a moment or a lifetime, to send joy indiscriminately to every person in the world.  I believe we all have the power to change our world, one moment at a time by making it a better place here and now.

That is my pledge to myself.  And to you.

If not me, who?  If not now, when?

Happy Holidays!